Is this for Real???

So I just glanced at my baby ticker at the top of my blog and noticed that the last little baby was highlighted. I kinda didn't really think that it'd ever happen. Somewhere in my mind, the reality of becoming un-pregnant has vanished or really never existed. I guess I thought I'd just be pregnant the rest of my life (heaven help me). Well, the signs of the times are at hand. I've been having menstrual cramp feelings for quite some time now. The doctor says that the baby's head is pretty much engaged in the birth canal and my cervix is VERY thin. I feel like I'm walking with his head halfway out. I laid awake pretty much all last night having pre-labor contractions that hurt like the dickens. No one told me that you have painful contractions BEFORE real labor. Who knew? A few other disgusting and painful things have happened, the details of which I will spare you...but the point is....I think this might be for real. I think I really am going to have a baby. I feel him move around all the time but just can't get my mind around the thought actually holding him in my arms.

With all the strange things that have been happening lately, Matt and I decided that we should probably, at a minimum, buy a car seat just in case I have the baby tomorrow or something. So, we finally bought something in preparation for our first-born's arrival. I actually made my very first baby purchase a few days ago. I got a little sleeper outfit and some onesies for him. When I got home, I showed Matt what I bought. Matt held up the little sleeper outfit and then hugged it to his chest and said, "We're going to have a snugly little baby!!". It really is surreal to actually think about it. Anyway, we're hoping that I won't have the baby for a least a few more days since my baby shower and our birthing class are this weekend. It'd be nice to know what's going to happen before it happens.

So...I think this is for real.